The Skinny 10

So… i did my workouts yesterday… i work out too much to eat as little as i was. self made detox diets don’t work… just eat what you’re supposed to because you’ll just binge…. and i ate several granola/cereal bars last night… i was purging it up and it was difficult to get up, but i sat there and i promised myself that if i can just get this up and continue with my weight loss and workouts, i’ll never purge again. i finally got it all up, and i do promise that that was the last time.

i’m actually not going inner tubing anymore, but i’m still gonna work my ass off cuz… 125 is what i’ve been dying to be for years. today’s workout is Tapout Plyo XT (i hate that one, it’s SO HARD).

today’s weight: 136.3

tomorrow’s goal: 135.5

i did what i said i’d do word for word yesterday, but i feel like now that it’s the work week, i’d go crazy without solid food in my stomach. so i’m gonna eat solid food for breakfast, and a shake before and after workout. 

honestly, this is the first time where i wake up and i feel like losing weight and looking fit it possible… it’s really weird. like… i feel happy knowing i’m going to follow through… it gives me butterflies. idk if i’m weird or not, but any other time i tried to lose weight, i didn’t have this feeling. hmm (: interesting to see what happens on Thursday. hopefully i’ll be 132 so that by Saturday i can be around 130. 

i talked to my bf yesterday and it was the best talk we’ve ever had… like i feel that after that, me and him can get back to normal again and i can stop purging on a regular basis. and since i’m inner tubing with my friends this weekend, me and my bf are going on a special date next weekend. i wanna look super cute in a white tank top and skirt (: so i gotta stay doing good on my diet!!